Thinking

I just realized that all the various friends I have who live nearby and I never see? They see each other. Get together casually without ever leading on that they're doing anything. Without remembering I'm around, too. This has prompted me to wonder:

What is it about who I am that makes people want to live their lives without me in it?




I fear no one will ever have the heart to tell me.

Relationships

How is it that guys fall madly in love with me for years on end and then ditch me abruptly and end up engaged to be married within a year?

SO I had some pre-op blood tests and it looks like I have indicators of liver disease/malfunction. Also my blood was apparently thin.

Yeay.