Gorgeous Weather

It is far too wonderful out for it to be early March, but I am fully enjoying it (as best as I can while working indoors).

Turns out that I completely forgot about a conference held at work today. I volunteered to help like last year, but that was a month ago and NO ONE sent any reminders. Oops? Still, I'm having an amazing hair day, so I can't complain.

My bed has arrived.. or will shortly. I got the delivery confirmation call. Part of me no longer wants it because the mattress alone is so BIG it will look ridiculous... but the other part of me says "FUCK IT! You deserve some completely absurd luxury!" So I'll be arranging a date for delivery shortly =)

I have my trip to see The Captain coming up. Is it horrible that I'm worried he won't like me or will think to himself "my god, she's ugly, how did I ever love her for so long?" I already KNOW I'm not looking to get together with him, as I came to terms with his airhead of a girlfriend months ago... but I would be so sad if it happened that way. It would crush what little confidence I still have in myself. And YES, RM, I know you're going to protest that and "blah blah blah if it's like that he wasn't a real friend anyway."

I wouldn't be sad about the friendship. I'd be sad about my judgement.

In other news, my social life is poor and I've started on a low dose of anti-depressants. So far there's no difference in me, but it's only been a week. I think I've grown too accustomed to my solitude and I need to renew my love of socialization. There are certain friends of mine who I only see when we're in groups, and I've started getting comfortable calling them individually.

Okay, it's ONE friend, but that's a start. Next week I will tackle "making small talk with strangers."

Also I need to play Risk more, because taking over the world on a weekly basis really does provide a boost for your ego.