Long Time, No Post!

Wow. It's been a while. To give a comprehensive update would require far more typing than I'm willing to do, so here's the rundown:

RYAN AND I are good. While I know she's setting herself up for a major heartbreak, and I'm rather pissed at her for it, we're even closer friends because of all this shit that's been going down. It's been good to get something "normal" to test our friendship with. The two of us are having a great time with the whole "bonding experience," even while we know the subject/cause isn't the greatest.

SHY AND I have not really spoken since the last conversation, but are keeping in touch via text messages and I think maybe one more phone call? We were joking and he said something bad about himself, and I got serious (not stuffy serious, just honest serious) and assured him that I hold him in the highest esteem. I think the fact that we're doing things for each other that shows that we're good friends, coupled with me being secure enough in myself to say things that clearly show how much I value his frienship are all causing him to shy away. But that's just his nature. And I'm okay with it all. I don't mind people shying away so long as they treat me well, and he's done nothing but treat me well.

MY DAD AND I aren't talking. Still. Kind of. He invited everyone to lunch this afternoon (my brother's in town with his girlfriend) and I refused to go... except he didn't know until everyone showed up without me. When he asked where I was, my mom just said, "the roofer came today." I don't think anyone brought it up again. Then he came to the house! Ugh. We exchanged words. I was not polite, but I wasn't rude. I didn't talk to him unless he asked me a direct question.

SPEAKING OF WHICH, when my mom asked what happened before she got home (two cars, so my dad was in the house with me and my brother for 30 minutes before she got in) I told her "I wasn't polite. But I wasn't rude, either."

My brother said, "for you, 'not rude' IS being polite."

Am I generally a rude person? I know I can be mean, and cutthroat, and unleash my wrath and all.. but I don't think I'm RUDE all the time.

It kinda makes me sad.