Complications

I have been talking to this amazing guy, Captain Wonderful, online for a few years. He loves me. He told me as much. I am friends with all of his friends. I am possibly his best friend. He told me that, too. And I don’t think he wants me. If he does, he has a strange way of showing it – by dating someone else and replacing me.

I have another guy I’ve been talking to for far less. We’ll call him Mr. Shy. I haven’t been able to figure out if he has a thing for me or not. There are big hints, and there are big possibilities that I’m making it all up because The Captain hurt me.

I met Shy in person last night. We were in a group and didn’t get much time to talk directly with each other, but it was fun. I was kind of a 5th wheel type in the group, but I participated and had a great time. I would love to get to know him, as friends, with some time together that doesn’t involve 800 other people. I am not in love with him. I am fully in love with The Captain. But I would like to get to know Shy a little better. He’s a good friend, and I could use another good friend.

Is it weird that he called me 30 seconds after we said goodbye and got in our cars and left the restaurant where everyone went for drinks? I hope he doesn’t like me, like me. That would make my life far more complicated than it needs to be.

He has pretty blue eyes. Just like The Captain.